I had a shitty week, but the things that made it a bummer were things I did not want to share.

With anyone.

It left me lonesome and blue.

My business partner was going to be over after teaching all day and I like to have tea and snacks ready for her. I knew we both needed something deeply nourishing.

When the kids were little we made vanilla sugar for gifts a few times. It's simple, but decadent. I miss it from time to time, but I found some vanilla beans, not the freshest, in the freezer and ground them up whole with organic sugar in the Vitamix. If the vanilla beans were fresh, I could've split them and scraped out the fragrant seeds, but blending it all together and sifting out the biggest pieces worked great. Since my sugar was like powdered sugar (fluffy) once it left the vitamix, I've adjusted the recipe accordingly.

I rarely have hot cocoa, but it seemed just right for the day.

I goggled DIY cocoa mix and started there for proportions of milk to cocoa to sugar and worked from there. Then I started adding things that were both cozy and heart warming.

It was the perfect thing. Cozy and rich, not too anything.

Here's the recipe:

1 cup Cocoa Powder, unsweetend

1 1/2 Cups Powdered Milk, any kind, I used nonfat leftover from a milk bath recipe I no longer make

1/3 Cup + 1 TBL Powdered Roses, you can buy them here or powder dried unsprayed roses in a blender or food processor

2 cups Powdered Sugar (or 1 granulated sugar)

1 1/2 tsp. Cornstarch (optional) To reduce clumping

1 Vanilla Bean, split and scrape into the bowl that you're mixing everything in or use my blender method above

1/2 to 1 tsp Cardamom Powder

1/2 to 1 tsp Ginger Powder

1/2 to 1 tsp Cinnamon Powder

Mix it all together

add 2 heaping spoonfuls to a mug and top with nearly boiling water

It's a pretty blush color when done.

Let me know what you think.

love, jewelie